What if the life you’re afraid of losing is the very life preparing you for what’s next?
Que After Dark | Personal Growth
My Life. My Lessons. My Perspective.
The Funny Thing About Wanting Shit to Stay the Same
I’ve been thinking about something that seems so obvious, yet we spend so much of our lives behaving as though it isn’t true. Nothing stays the same. Absolutely nothing. Our bodies change, our relationships change, our children grow up, our friendships evolve, and our careers take unexpected turns. Even the beliefs we once defended with everything in us can begin to look different after life introduces us to experiences we never saw coming.
Hell, sometimes you wake up one morning and realize the life you fought your ass off to build doesn’t fit the person you became while building it.
And that’s what fascinates me. We spend years working toward the life we believe will make us happy, but once we finally get comfortable living it, we start acting like life is supposed to leave us the hell alone.
As if life signed some permanent agreement that said, Congratulations, you’ve reached your desired level of happiness. No further changes will be made.
Now, we know damn well that ain’t how this shit works.
I’ve generally welcomed change because unfamiliar experiences give me something to become curious about. I want to know what I’ll learn, what I’ll discover, and what I might be capable of doing that I haven’t done before. That doesn’t mean I’ve never experienced fear or that every change has been pleasant. It means I haven’t viewed my current circumstances as the only ones I’m capable of navigating.
But I’ve started wondering whether people are really afraid of change or whether we’ve simply become attached to the life we’ve convinced ourselves is supposed to last forever.
When Comfort Becomes a Damn Expectation
Think about how we’re conditioned to approach adulthood. We’re encouraged to get an education, find a good job, build financial stability, develop meaningful relationships, and create a life we can enjoy. Depending on our personal desires, we may add marriage, children, homeownership, entrepreneurship, or whatever else we’ve decided represents success.
And there’s absolutely nothing wrong with wanting those things. Stability matters. Peace matters. Being able to enjoy life without constantly worrying about how you’re going to pay your damn bills matters.
But somewhere between working toward those accomplishments and finally enjoying them, we can begin mistaking comfort for permanence.
We get the career, settle into the routine, and begin expecting the paycheck to continue. We establish relationships, become familiar with how people show up for us, and begin expecting those interactions to remain consistent. We build lives around circumstances that feel secure, rarely considering that the very things providing our comfort are still subject to change.
What makes this so interesting is that we don’t usually have a problem with change when we’re the ones asking for it. When we’re unhappy, we want things to be different. We want better opportunities, healthier relationships, more money, and fewer problems. We practically beg life to change our circumstances.
But once we’re happy? Oh, now we don’t want nobody touching shit.
Ain’t that something?
Maybe the problem isn’t becoming comfortable. Maybe it’s becoming so attached to the conditions that created our happiness that we begin believing happiness cannot exist outside of them.
Bitch, I’ll Take Your Job!
I remember working at DHL, one of the world’s largest courier services. It was my second real corporate job, and I was a data entry clerk. I genuinely loved that job. A group of us would rent audiobooks from our local libraries, bring them to work, and listen while we entered data. We had our little routine going, and for years, I was perfectly content showing up and doing my job.
Our department sat right next to the billing department, and I remember watching those folks work. Sometimes they seemed to know more than us, or at least they carried themselves like they did. Meanwhile, I’d be sitting at my desk thinking, Bitch, I’ll take your job.
Now, don’t judge me. I wasn’t plotting anybody’s downfall. I was just quietly recognizing that whatever the hell they were doing over there was something I could probably learn to do too.
Then DHL announced layoffs.
I was married with children, so naturally, hearing that my employment was about to change got my attention. But DHL offered severance packages, unemployment benefits were available, and the company even arranged job fairs with staffing agencies to help employees find work. Once I understood what resources were available, I wasn’t sitting around stressed about losing my job. I knew I could find another one.
The question became whether I wanted another data entry position or whether I could use the opportunity to move up.
When I discovered that billing incorporated data entry skills, I knew I had a foundation. I didn’t know everything a biller did, but I knew I could learn. So I started pursuing billing opportunities, believing without a shadow of doubt that I was capable of getting one.
And I got the fucking job!
I landed a three-year contract with Xerox as a biller, and baby, I was excited as hell. I didn’t walk into that opportunity pretending to know everything. I walked in prepared to take notes, pay attention, ask questions, and learn whatever I needed to learn to get the job done.
Looking back, the most interesting part wasn’t that DHL laid people off. It was that I’d already imagined myself doing something different long before the layoffs happened.
The change didn’t create my ambition. It created an opportunity for me to act on ambition that was already there.
And I think that’s where many of us overlook something important. We become so focused on what an unexpected change might take away that we don’t always consider what our previous experiences have already equipped us to do next.
We Want People to Grow, Just Not Out of Our Comfort Zone
Now, this same attachment to comfort shows up in relationships, and this is where the conversation gets a little uncomfortable.
When we meet someone, we begin developing an understanding of who they are. We discover what we appreciate about them, become familiar with their behavior, establish expectations, and create routines that make the connection feel secure. Eventually, we begin imagining a future based on the version of the relationship we’re currently experiencing.
But here’s the problem with that beautiful little picture we’ve painted.
People don’t stop becoming just because we’ve become comfortable with who they are.
The person we met five years ago has experienced five additional years of life. Their understanding of themselves may have changed. Their priorities, desires, boundaries, and beliefs may have evolved. Meanwhile, we’ve been experiencing life and changing too.
Yet somehow, we can find ourselves offended when someone no longer thinks, behaves, or desires the same things they did when we first connected.
And sometimes the uncomfortable truth is that we don’t necessarily dislike the change itself. We dislike how that change affects us.
We want people to grow, as long as their growth doesn’t interfere with what we’ve become accustomed to receiving from them. We celebrate our own evolution while occasionally expecting others to remain the versions of themselves that work best for us.
Now, don’t take that shit and run too far with it. Personal evolution doesn’t excuse dishonesty, neglect, or abandoning responsibilities. If your decisions affect people you’ve made commitments to, accountability still matters. And if someone else’s evolution changes the relationship, you’re allowed to have feelings about that too.
But perhaps some relationships don’t struggle simply because people change. Perhaps they struggle because the expectations within those relationships never evolve alongside the people involved.
And that goes for friendships, family relationships, and parenting too. We can’t reasonably expect people to continue experiencing life without those experiences influencing who they become.
Including ourselves.
Nothing Has to Be Wrong for Something to Change
Here’s another perspective I think we overlook.
Sometimes nothing is wrong with the life we’re living. The bills are paid, the relationships are functioning, the career is stable, and we’re genuinely grateful for what we’ve accomplished. Yet something inside us begins changing. Our interests shift, our desires evolve, and things that once excited us no longer create the same sense of fulfillment.
And then comes the guilt.
Because we’ve been conditioned to believe that wanting something different means we must be dissatisfied, ungrateful, or incapable of appreciating what we already have.
But who the fuck decided that appreciating something means we have to want it forever?
I can appreciate an experience for what it taught me without requiring it to remain part of my life indefinitely. I can recognize that something once served an important purpose without assuming its purpose must remain unchanged.
That doesn’t mean every evolving desire requires an exit. Sometimes growth means learning how to experience something differently, communicating more honestly, or finding new possibilities within circumstances we’ve already established.
Other times, it means acknowledging that an experience has served its purpose and deciding how to move forward responsibly.
The important part is learning to recognize the difference between genuine contentment and remaining somewhere simply because the familiar feels safer than the unknown.
What If the Next Chapter Isn’t Starting From Scratch?
I believe life has purpose, even when we don’t immediately understand how that purpose is unfolding. I also believe our choices and responses influence what we create from the experiences we encounter. That doesn’t mean we control everything that happens, and it certainly doesn’t mean every painful circumstance was necessary or deserved.
But I do believe there’s something powerful about recognizing that our experiences don’t disappear simply because our circumstances change.
When I left DHL, I didn’t leave behind everything I’d learned. I carried my skills, knowledge, work ethic, and experience into Xerox. What I’d already learned became part of the foundation for what I was about to learn next.
And maybe life works that way more often than we realize.
A career can end without erasing our abilities. A relationship can change without invalidating every meaningful experience within it. A friendship can evolve without making its earlier seasons worthless. Even a dream we no longer desire can have played an important role in helping us discover what matters to us today.
Change doesn’t always erase what was. Sometimes it reveals what was being developed within us all along.
And that possibility makes me curious about life. Because if I’m constantly learning, evolving, and discovering new things about myself, why would I assume the life fulfilling me today is the only life I’ll ever be capable of enjoying?
A Little More From Que
I keep coming back to the idea that we may create some of our own disappointment by expecting life to honor promises it never made.
We know our children will grow up, yet we struggle when they become independent. We know people evolve, yet we sometimes feel betrayed when their perspectives change. We know careers aren’t guaranteed, yet we can build our entire identities around our job titles. And we know our own desires can change, yet we question ourselves when something we once wanted no longer feels the same.
I’m not suggesting we stop loving people, building meaningful lives, or enjoying the hell out of our accomplishments. Quite the opposite. I believe we should experience those things fully while they’re part of our lives.
But I don’t want to become so attached to protecting a beautiful chapter that I forget there’s an entire story still unfolding. And I don’t want to become so obsessed with discovering what’s next that I fail to appreciate what’s happening right now.
Maybe wisdom is understanding that those two things can coexist. I can be grateful for what I have while remaining curious about what I haven’t experienced. I can honor what something once meant to me while accepting that its meaning may evolve.
Nothing has to be wrong with my current life for me to recognize that it may not be my life forever.
And perhaps that’s the freedom I’ve been trying to describe all along. I don’t have to be afraid of losing every familiar thing, nor do I have to rush toward something unfamiliar. I can simply remain open to experiencing life as it continues unfolding.
Because I can love the life I’m living without being afraid of the life I haven’t met yet.
What’s Your Perspective?
Have you ever become so comfortable with a particular season of life that you struggled when it started changing? Or have you experienced a change that introduced you to opportunities you never imagined pursuing?
More importantly, are you genuinely enjoying the life you’ve created, or have you become so attached to maintaining it that you’ve stopped being curious about what else life might have to offer?
In The Fck Them Theory*, I explore how conditioning, attachment, awakening, and personal accountability shape our evolution. Sometimes the beliefs we need to reconsider aren’t about other people at all. They’re the expectations we’ve quietly placed on our own lives.
And if you’re navigating change and simply need a judgment-free place to express what you’re experiencing, Que Listens, through BlanQ Canvas, offers space to be heard without judgment. It’s not therapy, and you don’t have to show up with all the answers. Visit BlanQ-Canvas.com to learn more.
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Keep your spirit bright and your boundaries tight,
Protect your peace with all your might.
And if bullshit comes knocking tonight,
Yell, “FUCK THAT SHIT!! And to all a goodnight!”
— Author Que
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